Went to the chiropractor this morning. Feel worse. Muscles in knots. Bones are burning and everything feels inflamed. I wish the insurance would cover a massage because I need one to feel better. It would hurt to have done it’s not like it would be a luxury for me
On thanksgiving my Great Aunt Aggie walked into my aunts new living room and said “you could have an orgy on this couch!”
When I was a little girl I never dreamed about my wedding or my dress or my future husband.
I just assumed I would be alone forever
I don’t make sense half the time I just hope some people are able to grasp what I’m projecting you know
When I was about 5 my best friend and I loved Ricky Martin (she had his CDs) and I used I dance wildly and passionately to his music in her room it was a good time in my life
When I went to camp when I was little there was a French boy who came for a short time. He had an Afro and a tie dye shirt and followed me around and he was probably the only boy to ever have a crush on me but I don’t think he spoke English I don’t even know what his name was.
GrUncle Joe just came out to the car and brought me this leaf. He’s so odd but I love him
I have been feeling extra sick lately with a bunch of new symptoms and I was just about to go to bed and I just feel really sick and like crying
Last weekend I visited my friend at school and I told her roommate who I’ve met once that I’m asexual and she literally understood it right away, not weird at all.
When I told my (ex) boyfriend of two years I thought I was asexual he laughed at me and said “I don’t think you know what that means.”
I really appreciate people that are cool about stuff.
Whenever I try not to sound like a jerk, I sound like a jerk. I think it’s an actual curse like my insides are good but they ooze out all wrong
I feel like people in real life get second hand information about me and form opinions that I’m a piece of shit jerk.
But I’m a really nice piece of shit okay
It sucks that you can get over something someone did to you but no one ever really acknowledged how wrong they were and nothing was done to right it and you’re reminded of that a lot and just seeing people can make you feel really sick to your stomach and alone and like you have no friends except for your family
Last night I had a dream about torture devices and cute boys. So that’s what’s in my subconscious mind, how bout you?
I’ve been replacing the word “good” with “gutentag” in conversations with my mom for a month now and I don’t think she’s noticed.
That or she’s learned its not good to acknowledge me.
You know when I think of weddings I don’t get excited or anything. It’s not something I ever thought of as a little girl. When I dated I never thought about marrying the person I was with.
I’ll probably end up alone and I’ll get a dog to go adventuring with and I’ll be happy about it.